I'm not even sure where to start this post. But all I know is that I need to take a moment to write, because there are big things happening that have my head all wacky and hopeful and scared and prayerful and the list goes on and on.
What in the world am I thinking?! We are trying to sell our house, with hopes of buying something that gives our suddenly gigantic family some room to grow (Not in the more babies way! Let's not start a rumor!) rather than the constant obstacle course we are presently living in.
Am I crazy?! I love our house. It's clean, it's beautiful, it's held many memories and taken great care of us. I will miss it. And how in the world will I pack up stuff and move it to another place with two babies in tow? And how in the world will I keep the house clean while it is shown to prospective buyers?
There's a lot going on. Too much it seems. Part of me wants to just yell "Forget the whole thing!" and run back to bed and pull the covers over my head and enjoy the beautiful, yet cramped, nest we have built for ourselves. And then I look at these little guys...
(photos courtesy of their amazing nanny who sends me phone updates all day long...how awesome is she?!)
...and I think, this is all worth it. They deserve the best. Take a breath. And know that God is in control and this may be one of those times when He is about to do something so big that it blows your mind. So pay attention.
I admit, sometimes I ask myself how God would possibly do something so big for us when He already moved mountains and gave us the miracle of our precious boys. I mean, I am sure there are other people who are due their big somethings, right? Did I already get mine? And then I tell myself, He's God. And remember? He wants you to have the whole sky, not just a piece. And the best part is that He can give everyone their own perfect sky. There is not a finite number of "big somethings" to be handed out.
So breathe. And watch. He is faithful and He knows the desires of your heart.
OK, self-pep talk over.
PS. If you know a family who is looking for a wonderfully special, clean and remodeled home, in a great neighborhood with lots of kids, great schools and overall fantastic-ness, let me know!